And I Could Not Ask For More

I have been so very blessed in my life. I look around at my beautiful family and my wonderful friends I have been blessed with, I have a comfortable home I live in a great town full of wonderful people and I have a healthy mind and body, and am very blessed to have the gospel in my life. I am not sure what more I could ask for! I also have to say that I have had a little experience to help open my eyes to how very lucky I am to be a stay at home mother. A little over a week ago I was feeling those mommy blues, you know when you feel like all you do each day is dishes and laundry and diapers and clean up messes and wipe little bums and sweep the floor in front of the fireplace, you know all those things and the list could go on and on, well I was sort of feeling sorry for myself and a little invious of my husband getting to go to work and be around people all day and do different things each day and then come home to a VERY clean house and have dinner cooked and ready for him and his laundry folded and put away or hung up. Well someone must have thought maybe I needed a little friendly reminder of how very blessed I am to be JUST a stay at home mom. Our very good friend who is also our dentist called and they needed a little help in the Dentist office last week and this week as well because one of their assistance was going to be out because of having some sugery done. Well I will admit I was a little excited about having a little 2 hour break from my home and my motherly and wifely duties, not to be misunderstood as needing a break from my children because I love every second I spend with them and especially my little lady right now cause she needs me so much still. But I thought what the heck for two hours a day it will be a nice little break and probably just what I need. Well it had been SOOOOOOO much more difficult then I had anticipated. Each night that I go to sleep and know that I will be away from my kids the next day for those two hours I cry just thinking about it, I honestly don't know what I would do if I had to re-enter the working field at this time in my life. It would completly crush my heart and the guilt I would feel I am sure would be quite over whelming. I guess the reason why I am writing all of this is mostly for my own sake, so that on those days when I feel like I need a change or that life is so repetative, I need to stop and realize that I honestly wouldn't have it any other way. Each day I get to wake up and go in and see my kids and their sweet smiling face and the happiness they get in just seeing my face and knowing that I am here for them and they can count on me to take care of them in everyway... well there is no money or job that could take the place of those feelings and that joy, it is the most rewarding thing that I have ever or will ever do in my life and I can't thank the Lord enough for blessing me so fully! But I can do my very best to teach my children to love the Lord and to teach them all they need to know to grow up and be great people and one day great parents themselves, and what could be more rewarding then that!